5:37 a.m. - 2012-01-22
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=myHxqt_gS-M&feature=youtu.be
goddamnit there are no words. yes you look fuckin good, too damn good.. and i'm crying my eyes out, literally unable to stop the tears. we are walking through the snow covered back alleyways of my neighborhood that i've never even bothered to venture to before. but goddamn, you see how bad it is, see how i can't stop crying. and i'm telling you, how it is, is over. how we have been, for months, (and how we were before) boyfriend and girlfriend and such a huge endless future before us. and i can't sleep and i'm so crazy and now i am here in the goddamn snow white daylight and i am crying my eyes out telling you, i cannot be what you need, i cannot belong to you, i cannot be yours. and strangely, you handle your sadness and you handle me. you take care of me. you tell me it will be okay. i love you. and your love comes over me, for real, the real. i tell you. i don't want this long term committed monogamous relationship. can we be lovers and friends? and you say yes. yes. i have never ever been loved like this. seun. yes. yes. yes.
