6:43 p.m. - 2009-09-28
life's
its crazy, the fullness of my life, all these blessings, all these feelings. it's alot, it's a little overwhelming, cuz i'm a dreamer and i could spend days just staring into space. but right now things are busy: tons of reading for school, working on my various zine-related projects, taking the time to play a song on my guitar at least once a day (but still she's missing a string and i haven't got around to tuning her), reconnecting with old friends, and the thoughts of this boy that seem to have infected my mind (i like him a lot). busy, busy, busy. i thank you Ishtar, for everything. you are so sweet to me, really, and i see the challenges you are putting before me and i want you to know that i will do my best. money is so tight right now, and housework really needs doing, laundy majorly, and grocery shopping but theres no money for that right now, and the seemingly endless battle in defense of our beautiful home against nasty insects that travelled here with us from our last nasty apartment, i need to buy raid and get the bug man to come back and spray again, even though he always gives me such a hard time, he said it was guaranteed for a year. i just want to lay down and daydream, think really pretty thoughts and steep myself in a feeling (a feeling i deny wanting) oh such a feeling, i remember feeling this way when i was fifteen. i like him. he is so...mmmmm. but i mustn't waste too much time daydreaming, i must try to focus on reality and all the millions of things that need to get done. <3